zaterdag 23 maart 2013

a little comparison

My mind pulled the brakes on life yesterday. And there is only one way to explain the feeling.

When i was 10/11 and still in elementary school, my mum asked me to come with her to a shop in the next city. I could use my sisters bike, one with gears. I wasn't used to cycling, so i got tired and had trouble keeping up at the end of the hour ride. But after spending some time in the shop, i was refreshed.
We headed home with the wind in our face, and i couldn't keep up with my mum. I told her the cycling was heavy, she said i shouldn't complain, being tired and a bit of wind wasn't a reason to go that slow. I was just asking for attention. After 15 minutes in which i did my very best to keep up (the last 5minutes crying). Though she was skeptic, she offered to change bicycles.
She found out i wasn't exaggerating, there was something wrong with the bike. Which made riding it extremely heavy.

That's how i feel right now.
Like trying my very best, to keep up with other peoples standards. Knowing there is something wrong with my verhicle. But no one wants to listen.

I know you all have the best intentions, but please just let me be. I will get there, my own way, my own pace.
Thank you

dinsdag 17 april 2012

Crafting the Craft

whenever i get sidetracked the thing that gets me back to being spiritual is crafting.

It relaxes me and makes me connect with the universe. And i love how putting time in making an item adds to the magic. Whether you make jewelry, paint, sculpt, make ritual oils, it is the time, the intention that matters.
One of the books I own* sais ‘your ritual already starts, the moment you start planning it’ and I love that.

For me crafting ritual items is important. I don't know why really, it just makes my connection/rituals more personal i think.

Since I made time for being spiritual, I adopted more different crafts. When I came across an auction show on tv, (about a year ago) I was captured by the beauty of a necklace, made from human hair. And though I didn’t see it as something I should do, it never left my mind.
When thinking about a gift for a handfasting ritual, I decided that I should give it a try, so I ordered some books about braiding. I don’t intent to make anything for this occasion (the couple lacks hair) but I hope I can do so on future occasions.

When looking for hairwork online I found great (non-braided) hair-jewelry
http://www.beadinggem.com/2009/09/jewelry-made-with-real-hair-past-and.html

*this is not a litteral quote, and i really don't know wich book it was.

zondag 26 februari 2012

The causes of STRESS

Hello, and sorry, for not updating on the pagan blog project.
I will start joining from this point in time. (2nd D?)
I just had some personal issues, and exams.

First my exams, i ruined them and will have to retake almost all in summer.
Second. Four years ago, i had a friend with benefits, i cheated. He wished to never see me again.
I started waking up from dreams with him in it. Sometimes leaving me crying for days. For the past 3 months.
After which i wanted to go and visit him to tell him i'm sorry, but instead i send him a message (like many before) this time i got a reply. He forgives me :) I feel way better now.
Though i still need to work on my behaviour which caused this. It is a habit, and it's though replacing it by something better.

dinsdag 17 januari 2012

a fitting song.

it's hard to talk
to say what's deep inside
it's hard to tell the truth
when you've always lied

it's from the song how do you love someone.

It resembles the main problem i am facing right now. Mostly being honest to myself, but also not to pretend i'm someone else towards others. It doesn't feel right to live up to the 'image'. I just want to be loved for who i am inside, but therefor i need to express that.

maandag 16 januari 2012

A is for Animal totems

I picked this subject from the subjects posted by other people, i did not read the blog that covered this subject since i want to discover it for myself.

You can look at animal totems as spirit guides. The 12 astrologic signs western civilization uses all have a totem counterpart, but there are more totem animals that this.
Humans are supposed to be: co-creators with the Great Spirit of the world we live in. Animal totems support us doing so.

Your totem guide Works with you trough your life. It’s in you surroundings or in your mind when you need it most. A lot of people have only one totem during their life but you can encounter different totems trough life. Either when your First totem helped you solve the problems related to that animal or you choose a completely different path in life, which need different guidance.

All civilizations used to have rites of passage for young women and young men, usually find that place around the age of thirteen, fourteen or fifteen years. There must exist a community relationship among the older members of the community which will assist young people when they are ready for that stage, so that they can understand what it is to a man or a woman.
Today we don't have these rites.
To achieve a level of power you must go through a rite of passage that is always extreme, because it is so strong, so powerful. Totem animals guide you through this process.

Your totem might message or warn you. And often the things your totem tries to teach you feel uncomfortable, and give us fear. But by being bigger than that fear we reach spiritual growth.

As all things in life, they start having meaning to us, if we put time in it.
The Medicine of totem will only come into action in us, when we honor him. The greater our tribute, more important, we place our totem in our lives, the more powerful and effective it is.
Some ways we can honor our totem and involvement in our lives are involved:
 Pictures hang of it
 Drawings
 We know as much about your totem animal behavior to mimic (remember that by your imagination really come into contact with your totem)

Personal
My totem animal is a snake, but i only came across this when my life drastically changed, before that it was a dragon.
I had the life i was supposed to live, and was rather happy, but due to old sore i destroyed it, and i wasn’t reasonable enough to fix it.
Therefore my totem animal changed,

The snake
The Snake live intensely, is impulsive and mysterious and very ambitious. The Snake is determined, but sometimes also very stubborn, jealous and suspicious. Also, the Snake creative and has adaptability.

The snake symbolizes transformation, rebirth.
When the snake has grown out of his own skin he leaves behind.
I am working on letting people, relationships and other things that have no place in my life go. So I’m really sure that this is my totem animal, and I need to learn from it to grow in life.

The thing i had for dragons is huge, and storing them away did mean a end of a period to me. I didn't found out about my snake totem very fast. I happend to come across a LOT of workshops on animal totems but never cared to look into it. My ex who never remembers dreams had a dream of a snake biting exacly where i did, so he was convinced the snake was me, and i was like nah, i'm a dragon.
Actually i'm only aware of it since i started writing this. So i think it's a great expirience already.

I prefer mimic as the way to contact my totem, and i do this by practicing yoga.
But i feel like trying the other ideas i came across, and will try them soon.

With Love, Elizabeth

donderdag 12 januari 2012

pagan blog project

I'm joining the Pagan blog project.
Writing about spiritual subjects each Friday, with alphabetic subjects. With 24 letters and 52weeks i'll cover the same letter two weeks in a row.

I missed the first week. But i'm really looking forward to getting started.


zondag 25 december 2011

2011 is comming to an end

Have you tied up your loose ends

This is a link to an article about things you can do to start the new year 'fresh'. Without having the never ending to do list somewhere in the back of your mind.

I think i'll try some of the things on it. Though i will have to studie, so there won't be time for all.

donderdag 22 december 2011

soul journaling

A friend posted this on FB today.

With midwinter (jule/joel) start the 13 holy nights. this is a important period of speculation and silence. consciously experience the winter solstice and feel that the light comes back. Allow yourself these days to be as silent as the nature. every night is a zodiac image for the new order of the year. Try to plan completely nothing and just live day by day. Feel the silence. take your time. do everything with your full attention.(@yule agenda)


I have been quite lost lately, and when i got a discount email for laura hollicks courses i thought of it as a sign. https://www.soulartstudio.com/
So i signed up for the creativity cleanse. Keeping a soul journal about my intention, and why and how i am going to live by it.

one of the assignments was write down ways you would feel if your life was trifting, if you were the most whole version of yourself you could be.

And draw some of those.

This is me, dancing life.

dancing-life

maandag 28 november 2011

nog 2 weken

Over 2 weken sta ik alweer voor de 2e keer op de midwinterfair in het archeon.
Ik heb enkel wat nieuwe dameskleding, maar ik heb wel korting opde oude collectie. Wat langs komen zeker de moeite waard maakt.

Tot op de Midwintefair.

maandag 10 oktober 2011

Elsjefiederelsje nu op Facebook

Nu ik even geen kleding kan maken, zo zonder naaimachine en materiaal heb ik tijd om mijn marketing bij te werken. Want eerlijk, dat deel vergeet ik nogal gauw.
Omdat veel mensen facebook hebben en daar dagelijks zitten, nu een facebook pagina voor Elsjefiederelsje.



woensdag 5 oktober 2011

het was voorbestemt

De kamer die ik huur heeft één rode muur en nog geen gordijnen. Om zelf te kunnen kiezen, heb ik gekeken of ik thuis een mooie stof had liggen om gordijnen van te maken. het is een witte stof met geel/oranje bloemetjes geworden. En ik heb een gele stof die daar heel mooi bij past en een retro motiefje daar weer bij.
Kortom mijn kamer wordt ingericht met geel.

Nu vond ik vandaag op straat een stukje deurgordijn in de kleuren geel en rood, die heb ik op mijn kast geplakt als 'kunst'.
Het staat erg leuk, al denk ik er over ze als sjablonen te gebruiken en de hele zijkant onder de cirkels te verven.

donderdag 29 september 2011

Mijn eerste week in Gent.

Het bevalt hier prima, komend weekend verhuizen, waarschijnlijk, mijn ouders maken er liever een dagje van.

Bijna zit de eerste schoolweek er weer op, er wordt mij dagelijks gevraagt of ik wel versta wat mensen zeggen. En dat is geen enkel probleem, wat wel vervelend is is dat mensen mij zeker 5maal daags vragen mij te herhalen en dan vaak nog niet begrijpen wat ik wil zeggen. >.<

Mis mijn camera, om mijn eerste indrukken vast te leggen.

zondag 25 september 2011

Pauze

Ik ga studeren in Belgie en neem hierom even een pauze van Elsjefiederelsje.
Natuurlijk blijf ik gewoon leuke dingen maken, maar die zijn enkel nog te koop via beurzen, voorlopig niet via mijn website.

Misschien dat ik op de midwinterfair sta, maar ik ga eerst eens kijken hoe zwaar mijn studie is.

zaterdag 27 augustus 2011

Mega steamy rokken

Ik vind deze rok zelf prachtig, maar tegen de tijd dat ik zo'n outfit kan dragen naar een evenement heb ik vast al iets nieuws gemaakt.
Dus verkoop ik hem.
Ik heb hem 1maal gedragen, naar bal du mask. En voor de fotoshoot.

Hoepelrok (wit nylon, met elastieke band, zo ingekocht) sluit met knoop
Goud kleurige onderrok van crepe satin. Afgewerkt met zig-zag. Sluit met haakje
Bruin nepleren bovenrok met plooien. Rijgsluiting.
Legermutsje in dezelfde stof als de bovenrok.



zondag 12 juni 2011

stropdassen

Ik heb een week geleden aan mijn vriend gevraagd of hij nog leuke ideeen had voor steampunk items. En dat had hij :)
Stropdassen, van leer, stijlvol en toch bijzonder.
Ik ben echt heel tevreden over het resultaat, hier een voorproefje, ik ga er nog meer maken.
Ze komen na de midzomerfair op mijn website


dinsdag 7 juni 2011

voorbereiden midzomer Archeon

Ik ben druk bezig met dingen maken om te verkopen op de midzomerfair in het archeon.
Hoewel ik ook steampunk dingen maak, richt ik mij toch vooral cybergothic.

Het Archeon houd een vrijkaartjes wedstrijd, nu begrijp ik niet helemaal of je dan zaterdag kaartjes krijgt voor zondag of vrijkaartjes voor midwinter, of van die algemene dat je het zelf kan kiezen. Maar iig de wedstrijd http://archeon.nl/nederlands/agenda/midzomer+fair.html

Ben druk bezig met vanalles, en er komt helemaal niets terrecht van mij UFO regel.
Hier een voorproefje van wat ik al af heb, maar eigenlijk moet je gewoon naar het Archeon komen op 18 en/of 19 juni om alles goed te bekijken.

Mocht je niet kunnen komen, een deel van mijn artikelen is ook verkrijgbaar via http://www.Elsjefiederelsje.com

vrijdag 18 maart 2011

UnFinished Objects

My rooms a mess, and though that's nothing new, i decided i would go craft acording to a new rule.
Before every new project i start i have to finish a UFO. And since projects often turn in to UFO's i think this is the way to go to force myself to finish stuf.

This week i finished my pink/white fluffy legwarmers.
And started on foam falls.

dinsdag 1 juni 2010

cutout+keep

I am a member of an amazing website, wich i never contributed to untill recently.
My own project a toilet paper hanger made from a snowchain


I'm working really hard on making things for the gothic and fantasy fair in October, using a flower tutorial on that site.
They have the greatest recycle projects listed, i love the t-shirt dresses most.
It's relly worth taking a look, for inspitation and fun.

donderdag 21 januari 2010

a finished project




I finished my steampunk bag this week. And like how it turned out, it's my first big project with leather.
But since i choose comfort over good looking i'll stick with my eastpack. I have this bag for sale on marktplaats now.
I'm looking forward to make more accessoiries from 2nd hand materials =) and should get a site to sell it, since my parents won't let me use their creditcard i can't have an etsy account.


maandag 28 december 2009

systematic chaos

Stuff i have
- 7 boxes with fabric scraps for doll clothing
- 4 fabric pieces i wanted to make cardigans from, for a fair where i stood in october
- gears from an old clock
- pieces of my old demolished sewingmachine
- about 60 skeleton keys
- 40 keyboard interriors, there is great stuff in there, but i never got arround to use it
- brown and green leather i stripped off old couches
- transparent plastic tablecloth for clothing
- Linnen for another mideavel dress

stuff to do
- Homework for my education as soundengeneer
- half finished mideavel dress
- half finished assasins creed costume
- half finished steampunk bag
- half finished hello kitty cardigan
- pre cut dollclothing i still have to sew
- tons of dollfurniture wich needs repainting, but no place for a dollhouse
- glass cristmas balls to paint
- blanco piggybanks to paint

It's quite a list. And i plan to get rid of all this stuff. Some by using it, others by giving it away or selling it.
In about a year i hope to go and live together with my boyfriend, and i can't take all this with me, but i can't leave it with my parents either. They are getting sick of it already and now it's still my bedroom.
I promissed myself if i manage to clear things, i will make my own weddingdress. :) great deal right?